Poem: The Fallen

Paradise within reach
Eternal happiness in our hands
Tricked and fooled by another
Slipped thru our fingers like sand

Wide eyed children playing
Curiosity designed in our make
Not understanding the forbidden
The word “NO” we would not take

We had to know
We had to understand why
Couldn’t leave it alone
Tempted fate, had to try

The serpent beckoned
This garden is your own
Why must you stay away?
Why haven’t you been shown?

What knowledge is kept from you?
What is HE trying to hide?
Pull down a piece
That’s it, give it a try

In this paradise
This tree you cannot touch
Never eat from its fruit
Never do such

That was the law
Passed down on to us
But we didn’t obey
And we lost so much

The fruit in our hand
The serpent in our ear
The law that was spoken
We could not hear

Go on take a bite
The serpent began to hiss
You are in his image
Surely you deserve this

At that moment
Our heads full of lies
We couldn’t resist
We had to take that bite

The bittersweet juices of the fruit
They opened up our eyes
Things gone unnoticed
We now realized

We were naked
We were ashamed
We hid from HIM
Fear in us reigned

HE called out to us
Asked why we were hiding
At that moment HE knew
There was no denying

We had broken HIS one law
We had betrayed HIS trust
HE was filled with anger,
Sadness and disgust

At that moment
The punishment came
We were banished
To never come back again

We, ejected from paradise
The serpent, forced to crawl
We were ultimately responsible
For it all

We… The Fallen

Poem: Shadows

The shadows lurking in the corners
Forever following me
Always there, always a step behind
Ready for my fall, to take hold

I ignore them but know they're there
From the corner of my eyes
I keep watch, making sure
They don't over take me

Fought them for so long
Finally broke free
But I must stay on guard
Not to slip back into their embrace

Days were dark, nights were darker
They covered me but never kept me warm
Embraced me but I never felt close
Surrounded me but never felt secure

Must keep a step ahead
Must keep a watchful eye
Never let them keep pace
I must keep them at bay

Poem: Grey

Another year, more time gone
Another chapter filed away
I grow older, I see it in my face
I feel it in my bones

But I don't "feel" older
Memories from the past
Seem like yesterday
I still see them, vivid in my mind

I can recall, knowing I can't go back
Excitement, the joy, the pain
The wonder of new things
Where has the joy gone?

Nothing excites me
Joy is a rare thing
I'm indifferent to the pain
I have become numb

Is it because I'm older & cynical
And no longer young & hopeful
Has time jaded me, made me uncaring
Or just make me realize that at some point the wonder stops

Poem: Hide For Now

Another dream
Another nightmare
The wandering, the searching
I know he’s here, I know he’s waiting
Looking for his chance

I see a shadow, I hear the footsteps
He’s lurking about, waiting to strike
Sometimes I feel the desire to let him loose
Let him be free, to let him express himself
But...I must refrain, for it could be damaging

The sheer joy I feel when I let him loose
The freedom I have when I let go of control
But sometimes, he’s hard to rein in
The feeling to good he doesn’t want to go back inside

I don’t blame him, I keep him under lock and key
I only let him out when I need his strength
His wild uncaring attitude
His ability to not care for anyone except for himself

When I need him to shield me from harm
When I can’t be as strong as him
I release him, let him protect me
Give me the strength I need

Oh, but to just cut loose once
To let him go unchecked
I long for the day, to release his wild
One day, when the time is right it will happen

Some don’t know how close they have come
Some never realize the true man inside
Waiting to open up on them
Waiting to cut deeply into their psyche

But...I have reined him in just in time
If only they knew
They would leave me the fuck alone
Watch their fucking step, not to cross that line

Poem: Maybe, Maybe Not

Maybe, maybe not
Can never really know what goes on
In your mind, surprise
You didn’t count on me changing the game
Didn’t count on me to try
Expected me to give up
Expected me to quit
But I surprised you
Now you can’t process
The situation
You don’t know what you want
Some days you want me
Some days you don’t
Afraid of what could be
There are no guarantee’s
Yes things could change
But we both have to try
But I wonder if maybe
You want to move on
Feel a new love
To experience the high
That a new love would bring
Maybe you need a rush of endorphins
Romance, the butterflies in your
Stomach, maybe I can’t be that man
But you always knew that was the way
I have always been
Sorry don’t know the answer
To your questions

Poem: Fallen Angels

Weathered wings
Bent halo
Crying to the sky
Wondering where to go

Knowing in your heart
You feel forsaken
Where’s the mercy
The innocence had been taken

Pain haunts our dreams
Darkness clouds our thoughts
Temptation standing in our face
So many choices right and wrong

All of us loved in his eyes
All of us perfect in his mind
One day we will return
To stand by his side

Until that time, we walk
The earth as fallen angels
Trying to go back home
Back to the place we gave up

Poem: Gone

Finally I have worked it
Out of my system
The rush has passed
Calm has settled in
Move on, move out
Step back
Bring myself
To where I want to be
Knowing I'm the one
Who will end up victorious
The Cold and Darkness,
Ah, how I know them so well
They well protect my emotions
Shelter me from the pain
And I shall use them to distance
Myself
Out of touch
Out of time
Invisible, I shall become
Leaving nothing behind
Nothing, nothing at all
No evidence of what was
…Gone

Poem: Walls

You have many walls to
Protect yourself
To hide what truly lies beneath
To use as a fortress

I’m tired, I know longer wish
To play this game
For every wall I knock down you erect another
Do you really want to let someone in or is this a lie

I have no more time for this chase
I have let my walls down and let you see inside
You cannot do the same even after you say you trust me
The fight is no longer in me, I must move on

But I will rebuild my walls
Founded in hurt, built with hate, reinforced with sadness
And painted with anger
No, you shall never pass through these walls again

Never again will you peer into my soul
Never again will you feel the love I have
For I must move on, as painful as it maybe
And my soul must close it’s self to you

I tried, but it takes more than I have to offer
I have nothing left to give, nothing more to fight with
So the walls have come back up
I will never let you pass, try as you might



Many years of pain have made me a master of protecting myself
I will show you what it truly means to have a wall around your soul
Your sword will dull before you pass, you will weaken with every blow

I can live with the pain, can you live with the regret of passing
Passing on the one sure thing you could ever hope for?
Time will tell, but time will still not wear down my walls
Time is something you no longer have, nor me

Poem: Ripped Soul

Again I am alone,
By choice, by fate, by chance?
What is it that I’m looking for?
Something is missing from my life
My soul does not feel complete
Like something is missing

Am I looking for something that was
Taken away from me,
Stolen by a bad childhood?
I can feel the lonely hands of darkness
On my shoulders

When I turn my head it’s all I see
Her cloak envelopes me
Surrounds me within
But yet I enjoy it, I feel at home
The light can no longer blind my eyes

But the darkness is just a bandage
It still cannot stop the pain that I feel
I hate being alone, it frightens me
But at the same time excites me

Maybe it’s time I came out of my shell
Let the true person show through
But who exactly is this person
Do I really know myself?
Do I want too?


What beastly desires will be unleashed?
What have I been holding back all of these years?
Fear? Desire? Lust? Love? Anger?
My soul aches for a cure, but what is the
Fucking cure?

Will I ever find it? Will I carry this tortured soul forever?
Sometimes I feed off the pain. Sometimes it feeds off of me
Will I burn out before the fuel of my soul does,
Or whither away in the cold darkness of my very own soul?