Poem:Passion

My mind grows tired
My body grows old
I need some excitement
I need a new passion

I bore easily
I'm losing interest in my favorite things
Am I becoming an empty shell
Just going thru the motions

I just exist
No purpose
Something to drive me
I feel numb

The fire slowly becoming an ember
My humor fading away
I laugh because its expected
I feel empty inside

Need something, someone
To help re-ignite my soul
Bring laughter where there is none
Give me a passion

Poem:I Promise Nothing

Don't follow me down
I promise nothing
The path is dark
I can't protect you

I've been down here before
I know the way
But your on your own
I suggest you go

The shadows will swallow you
The cold will rip your flesh
I'm use to it
I rather enjoy it

This path is not for you
Stop now, before its to late
I promise you nothing
Except pain and heartache

Poem:This Isn't.....

This isn't about a bad family
This isn't about dysfunctional
Its about a boy angry deep inside
Wanting vengence, wanting payback

This isn't about abuse
This isn't about being unloved
Its about the effects they have
When they are put to use

This isn't about feeling lost
This isn't about feeling alone
Its about covering up the scars
And holding back the tears

This isn't about a lost childhood
This isn't about growing up fast
Its about holding back the pain
And hiding the need

This isn't about you
This isn't about you caring
Its about me dealing with it
Trying to make sense of it all

This isn't ur problem
Its mine

Poem:Going In For The Kill

The shadows around me
Trying to stop what must be done
He hides from me but laughs
I hear the cackle from all around

He knows what I want
He feels the purge coming
It must be done
That side must fade away

Containment didn't work
Cannot ignore the presence
Like a tumor
He must be removed

Going in for the kill
Is the only way
I must remove him
No trace can remain

Going in for the kill
Only one of us can survive
Going in for the kill
The time has come

Poem:Descent

I have fallen
Farther than I wanted to
He has done it again
I'm left to clean up

This time the stakes
Are even greater
Everything could lost
In a matter of months

I lost control
But it was to late
And now I pay
But this time is different

Even more is at stake
And again someone was hurt
By him, who is also me
I'm falling

The descent has begun
I just hope I can recover
The fall may be too great
I am in descent

Poem:Smother

I have feelings of excitement
But also of distance
Sometimes she seems farther away
Than the actual miles between us

I love to show attention
But sometimes maybe it is too much
But I can't help it
I feel a love for her, burning inside

I want her to know that I think of her
When I'm awake and when I dream
But I don't want to smother her
Don't want to push her away

So I try to control my showerings of love
But its hard, everyday I want her to know
That she's special to me
More than I can explain

So I will restrain myself
Take it down a notch
She has my fire burning
I long to hear her voice

Poem:Disengaged

Reaching out for your love
I grip but yet feel the thorns
I bleed as I try to embrace you
It seems it is my payment

It seems when I'm hot
You only radiate cold
I feel the distance you have
As I stand next to you

I remember the electricity
Now just a static charge
Have I lost my luster?
Have I become disengaged?

My touch was heaven
But to touch you now I go thru hell
There seems to be no answers
But we don't know the questions

Poem:Strength

The strength
Coming from the pain
I feed off of it
I use it to survive

I refuse to give in
I will not acknowledge
Refuse to feel it
Use the pain

Take it and
Use it to strengthen
The walls of my soul
Reinforce my heart

It fuels me
The rage motivates me
It washes over me
Bringing the strength

The strength to stand
To move on, move away
A reminder to guard myself
The pain refused

I will stand strong
The winds and rain
U brought, I will not bend
The pain my strength

Poem:No Strings Attached

I knew what this entailed
But maybe its not for me
I know I'll always be second
I don't like that feeling

But I can't blame you
No promises were given
This is strictly pleasure
No strings attached

No falling in love
No commitments
Just sessions of sex
Pleasing one another

You getting what
Your not getting at home
Me filling a void
A deep void in me

But I know
Its just filler
This can never truly
Be more than what it is

Nothing more than an affair
Never a true relationship
But right now
Its all I can handle

Poem:I Move Forward

Past the point of reconciliation
Past the point of return
I have no desire to be with you
The fire for you no longer burns

I have released myself
Let go of my fears
I am stronger now
Eyes dry, there are no more tears

Ready to be one
Ready to set myself free
Let go of the past
Only the future awaits for me

Another chapter written
A new one to begin
New characters come
Old characters come to an end

I release myself
I free myself from the past
I move forward

Poem:Hit Me Up

I really don't care
I'm numb to others feelings
I just want attention
I want the physical

Feel the touch
A hot passionate kiss
Not love
But burning lust

No relationship
No trust
Just animal instinct
Desires set free

I don't wanna be your man
I don't need a woman
But I'll be it for tonite
Stop when the morning comes

Just want fun
No strings attached
Come if you want
Go if you choose

I don't want an investment
No romance needed
Hit me up when you want it
I'll pretend to be your man

Poem:A New Man

The 7th day, the first moon
A new dawn, a bright day
Finely can see the light
I have reached the end of the tunnel

Another morning comes
I am awakened my soul is healing
Day slips to night
Night no longer feels lonely

The silence in the house
Has stopped closing in on me
I have become calm
A new day, new feelings

I rinse the past off
Put on the future
Look ahead
Only one last glance back

A deep breath
A new chapter
A new vision
A new man

Poem:Recovery

I look around my soul
I examine the damage that was done
I can see its beginning to heal
But scars will remain

I don't kid myself
I still feel the pain
It comes time to time
Reminds me to keep guard

I will not play the fool
Keep my emotions close
Open up when I feel
Feel its the right time

My soul still bruised
My ego will recover
I will be whole again soon
But I will not give freely

This time it must be earned
I must have proof
Evidence that there is love
Before I bare my soul

Poem:Collage

A tapestry in my mind
Many different pictures
Make the collage
That is my life

The pain, the hurt
The happiness and the joy
All are components
Pieces of my life

Memories like film in a camera
Fade like the pictures it produces
But I try to hold on
Because sometimes that's all I got

Every experience
Every sensation
Every thought
Just add to the collage

A collage hanging
Hanging in my mind
I look over my life
And see the colors

The colors that helped paint
The collage

Poem:Mysterious Lady

I haven't heard your voice
Nor have I seen your face
But we share a connection
That I cannot replace

Your sensuality excites me
Your honesty so sweet to the taste
I want to wash in the glow of your aura
I long to keep a smile on your face

We intrigue each other
Exciting is this game
I enjoy being your good boy
Making sure me lady is smiling all the day

If I have wronged you, or made you mad
That was never my desire
I bow before thee, humbled
As I long to feel your fire

Find it in your heart
To let me again make you smile
Keep you wet with desire
I'll be waiting all the while

My humblest apologies me lady.

Poem:Interweave

I want to interweave with you
Want to get to know your mind
Create a comfort for both
A tapestry so sublime

I wanna hold your psyche
And kiss your soul
I wanna know you
I don't want just the physical

Interweave our desires
Learn each others thoughts
Feel the happiness inside
Embrace one another deeply

I wanna strip you down
To your very essence
See the true you
Naked and wonderful

We then interweave
Are souls intertwined
Feeling each other on another level
Then our love truly expands

Poem:Vyctor Rising

Vyctor rising on the 5th day
Breaking free from his chains
The beast contained too long
His time has arrived, let him reign

From the ashes he emerges
Like a Phoenix rising to flight
Born again, created anew
He flows past all of the spite

He is free from his cell
The one deep inside of me
Finely free to roam, to explore
Desires needing to be filled daily

The flip side to this coin
But one that was rarely seen
Now rises from within
Something thats always been

He feels the shackles fall
The binds are loose
Set free to be me
He comes to my rescue

Use his fire for my own
Push forward trying
Realize, release and let go
Vyctor rising